After hearing Dov Baron speak about how important our beliefs are, through an interview I listened to in December 2006, I searched for more information on this topic. Ultimately, I was looking for a way to change or remove what I believed.
I spent a little while going over the information that came up on a search engine and, after a little while, I came across a website that stood out. What I had found was a healing technique that would do just that – change what I believed.
Tell Me More
The person who offered this technique was someone called Tracy Holloway. I looked though the website a number of times and, as I had a number of questions, I sent her an email.
It didn’t take long before I heard back from her, and after I had found out more about what it was all about, I felt that I should take the next step. I booked an appointment, which would take place over the phone.
A Big Step
This was the first person I had reached out to, so I wasn’t sure what to expect. But I soon found out that I had nothing to worry about, she was warm, compassionate, understanding and supportive.
Due to the kind of women who were around me when I was growing up, I was amazed that a woman could be like this. I ended up going on a number of courses that she taught, and this was a time when I first started to connect with people who were also on the path.
This was a time when I received the validation that I desperately needed, and a big part of this related to being told that what I was going through was ok and that there was nothing inherently wrong with me. I didn’t really know why my life was a struggle at this point, but what I did know was that I needed support.
While this was going on, my family found out about what I was doing, and I ended up being criticised. I had a rough idea how they had found out, but it didn’t really matter who it was at this point.
As far as they were concerned, I was just wasting my money, and this just proved to me how out of touch they were. I was struggling but they were unable to see this; perhaps they didn’t want to see it.
However, I knew that I had to do something, which is why I wasn’t prepared to stop what I was doing in order to please them. I then started to feel better and, at the same time, I had more pressure to than normal to deal with.
If I hadn’t listened to myself back then, I have no doubt that I would be a very different person today. What I believe this emphasises is how important it is for us to listen to ourselves, and to trust our own judgement.
This is not always easy, though; especially if we have always had people around us who believe that they know what is best for us. Still, with patience and persistence, this is something that can be developed.